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4月8日 HEY SLOW DOWN....you LIFE!!Wow.....Look how fast life is running.....As soon as I could understand the present situation it just changes.....I just feel like it was few days back when it was new year and look 3 months are gone....
Life is running so fast through the Golden period of my life that I feel like it just a day...My life has turned into a DAY....
I want to enjoy the life but....its just not giving me the time to do so.....
Nnw I understand the mindset of the person who wrote these lines......."As soon as I find key to success someone changes all the locks"....
 Take Care
Mayank 12月21日 I am hopelessHas this ever happened to you, that you feel like lost even in your home......
you feel alone even when you are surrounded with all the persons whom you care for and think they also care for you...
well this sort of thing is happening to me....
I sit and think why is it......I even start hating person around me for no reason..... I feel irritated even when person show care for me....I dont know why all these things are hapening to me....I know that this is bad....even when I think about my behavior I feel like I have done wrong...and console myself and try to adjust with my life....but I feel like I dont fit in this puzzle of life....I dont belong to the place I am in....I dont belong to the persons I am around...
I want to change everything around me....I even want to change myself....but am so much tied up in this so called MAYA that I cant move out of it....I want to do meditation but again fail to do it.... may be all the suffering I am going through is destined for me by God.....
I always belived in destiny...I always had faith in it...that it will lead me to a better place in the end.....but right now its all messy....I have even started doubting my thoughts of courage...
Earlier I used to self motivate....I used to say to myself that I can get out of every situation....and my mind and soul also belived my words....and provided me energy to get out of every situation....but now....when I do this my inner soul says...that I am lying.....it dont belive me anymore....
what should I do......I even dont know where to start from......
Hope less
Mayank 3月29日 MY Life....My MysteryThe life is mysterious to me......may it is because I am also a bit mysterious.... Now a days I am going through such a phase of time that I hate the most....the phase of uncertainity, I dont know what to do next.....bust as I write these lines I remember the lines of one of the most intelligent persons I have ever met....her name is Sandra Petty.... she says that if you think like you are not able to do anything then eventually you will end up doing nothing....so I should not think like this........
I am not satisfied with my life right now...and I think I should not be satisfied till when I belive that I deserve more than what at present I am getting from life, this unsatifaction is the driving force that guides me or motivates me to grow....I will make myself satisfied when I feel that "thats it...now that is much that I can acheive."...and then I will make myself satisfied as this satifactio is neccessary for making a person happy.....I dont want to happy now...I want to keep myself unhappy to the extent that I will not sleep..I will not eat...I will not think of anything else other than my growth from my current position...
I want to grow....and I will Grow...may be I will grow only because I want to grow... :)
Mayank
PS: I am really feeling more comfortable and more energetic now...maybe it is because I have found my way out of that uncertainity...now I found what I want what I want to do.....I WANT TO GROW.... 1月17日 HELLO EVERYONE!!!!Hello everyone!!!.....you guys may be thinking that i have forgotten about updating my space......no its not......actually past months were the months which really change a person.....these months have really changed me....i lived alone......worked in a job made some relationships some emotional attachments then changed the job changed the place and now i am in a new place in anew job, in a new environment with persons with different personalities then earlier one......all this helped me in adapting to the changes......earlier I was in Daman....an now I am in Jammu ....it is said that it(Jammu) is heaven on Earth....and I must admit that this place is really beautiful...with every kind of beautification that God could create at one place......but the persons here are a bit different in their attitude than the place I was earlier.....I am really feeling hard to adjust here....may be it is because I am trying to see same kind of persons and same kind of feelings in everyone and every person I meet.....
There are many more things/incedences which i want to share....
.............I WILL BE BACK----------------------MAYANK 11月15日 listenWith tears in my eye
I am sitting here in my stranded life
I tried to talk and mouth my emotions
but everyone is going fast in motions
My vision is getting blurred with tears
Hold my hand so that I could fight with my moron years
Please Listen to me
if you care for me
With streched hands....waiting for some one to hold them
Mayank
8月28日 Reason....Today I just sat idel for sometime.... so that I could analyze my pain.... as one of my friend suggested me.....but the reason was out of my comprehension..... I think I am too much emotional the problem was that Iwas not giving time to myself...... I was trying to make everyone happy... but when expect to much of you that you cant give then it Hurts..... that was my reason of my pain.......
In this process of making others happy i had lost me ...completely... and that inner me was alone..... it was crying for company ..... today I gave time to me..... I was just me....... then I talked to myself about so many different issues... about my present life..... and my future... I am quite amazed by the extent I am feeling relaxed now.... now from today onwards I will give time for an appointment with me also....... It keeps you in touch with what is happening inside....
I cant lie...... so I am telling you that I weeped also ... but there is no one's shoulder to put my head on ....who could console me .... who could just put hand on my head....and say that " Dont worry Mayank I am with you"...... my eyes... go out in search and return back to me...... I am like standing in a vast desert where no one is around me... I have to fight myself for my servival..... I am happy that I got great friends like you for my support and helped me to know my strengths... I got some one one who care for me no matter how far they are from me... but I could feel there love with me....... I will like to devlop my community like this......
Thanks to all
Love for you all
I am lucky that I got great Friends like you
~Mayank
8月25日 My Heart ......it AchesI am feeling like torned, crampled...... crushed....... With in past few days everyone around me is hurting me.....Why is it so?.....am I that bad........
I have never shared my pain with anyone...as I always wantd others be happy....and they thought that I am the happiest person inthis world......but in deep inside I am in an intense pain which is killing me...slowly like slow poison....
My parents lack in emotion for me........ they think that I am strong enough to incur anything which I face.....but I am a human being...I too need to be loved...to be cared......I too want some emotional touch......
Guys Stop hurting me.....otherwise there will be no Mayank to hurt
Aching Heart
Mayank 8月4日 MY IQ
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